29 Dec – Billie Lourd recently took to social media to express her thoughts about her mother, Carrie Fisher, whom she lost seven years ago on 27 December.
On the seventh anniversary of the "Star Wars" star's passing, the actress shared a photo from her childhood on Instagram and wrote, "It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who's counting?? Me I guess?) Every anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some infuse me with rage, some make me cry all day long, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of those things all at once."
"This year when I woke up I felt grateful - or 'griefull' if you will. Grief has infused my life with a sense of appreciation I had never had before. It makes me soak up every moment of joy as if it were my last. Today I was holding my daughter while she was napping in my arms and my eyes welled up with tears of joy. I laughed at myself then cried more because I was laughing. I felt my mom's presence like the warmth of the sun on your skin on a hot summer day. The kind of warmth where you unknowingly close your eyes and take a slow breath through your nose and grin. I miss her every day but the cliche is also true - she is with me every day - she infuses my joyful moments with even more joy." "As I tell my son, she lives in the stars - and she damn sure makes my life sparkle. Sending my love to all my griefers out there. And hoping everyone can feel a little sparkle of griefull among all the feelings grief inevitably brings," she added. Fisher passed away at the age of 60 on 27 December 2016 after suffering from a medical emergency on a flight to Los Angeles from London.